Josefina Vidal<\/p>\n
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Love<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I am in love with love.\u00a0 One of my favorite people that I am in love with is John F. Kennedy Jr.\u00a0 I saw him once at Grand Central Station.\u00a0 It was the rededication.\u00a0 He spoke about his Mother.\u00a0 He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen.\u00a0 That was October 1998.\u00a0 Just nine and a half months before his death.\u00a0 I feel closer to him in death.\u00a0 I look forward to being with him someday.\u00a0 The weekend that he got married his spirit came to me to try and stop it.\u00a0 I wish I had.\u00a0 Like Prince William, I did not like John’s wife.<\/p>\n Another person that I am in love with is my husband, Francois.\u00a0 We divorced after ten years, but we have now been together for twenty-two\u00a0 years.\u00a0 He is French.\u00a0 He is a doctor in his third year of residency in New Jersey.\u00a0 We met in June 1991 in Los Angeles.\u00a0 We married less than two weeks later in Las Vegas.\u00a0 We lived for a short while near Paris, France.\u00a0 Then we settled in NYC.\u00a0 I hope to be with him forever.\u00a0 I hope to be with him in heaven someday.<\/p>\n Someone else I love is my Mother.\u00a0 She does customer service for The Metropolitan Opera.\u00a0 She’s also worked at NYU.\u00a0 She worked for Chase Manhattan Bank for over twenty years.\u00a0 My Mother has a heart condition.\u00a0 She also has high blood pressure and other health problems.\u00a0 I wish that she would take better care of herself.<\/p>\n I also love my Father.\u00a0 He is a Black Jack dealer in Las Vegas.\u00a0 He moved there when my parents divorced when I was four.\u00a0 He has been married five times.\u00a0 His current wife is forty years younger than he is.<\/p>\n I suffer from depression.\u00a0 I get a shot every two weeks.\u00a0 In August of 1997, I attempted suicide.\u00a0 My loved ones keep me happy.\u00a0 I dream of them.\u00a0 I pay close attention to my dreams.\u00a0 I hear voices.\u00a0 I feel that my loved ones can speak to me from a far.\u00a0 With John, my dreams and his voice are all I have.\u00a0 I have smoked pot.\u00a0 It makes me feel good.\u00a0 I think that it should be legal.\u00a0 I have been in the hospital for depression many times.\u00a0 I have been out of the hospital for almost five years now.\u00a0 When I smoke, I feel as if my loved ones are making love to me.\u00a0 One at a time.\u00a0 My husband does not want me to smoke.\u00a0 Neither does my Mother.\u00a0 It is the biggest difference I have with them.<\/p>\n I keep a journal.\u00a0 Mostly I write about my dreams.\u00a0 I am also in love with Prince William and Prince Harry.\u00a0 John is the best-looking of them all.\u00a0 His only serious girlfriend besides his wife was Daryl Hannah.\u00a0 Most of my loved ones give a lot to charity.\u00a0 In his day, John was the most famous man in the world.\u00a0 People magazine named him the sexiest man alive and had him on their cover.<\/p>\n I have not done as much with my life as my loved ones have.\u00a0 I probably will be better known for who I am married to than for what I have done.\u00a0 John is not remembered in his Father’s library as an adult.\u00a0 I think that that is a shame.\u00a0 John’s Father was the President of The USA.\u00a0 He was killed.\u00a0 John died in a plane crash.\u00a0 He was piloting the plane.\u00a0 His wife and her sister died with him.\u00a0 This November 22nd will be fifty years since his Father was killed.\u00a0 He is remembered by most.\u00a0 I hope that John is not forgotten.\u00a0 There are YouTube videos about him.\u00a0 There are also videos about William and Harry.\u00a0 It is harder to remember John since he is dead.\u00a0 William and Harry are always in the news.\u00a0 I can’t choose just one person to be in love with.\u00a0 I wish that I could.\u00a0 I fall in love easily.\u00a0 But I am very picky.\u00a0 The man has to be almost perfect.<\/p>\n I wish that I could meet someone new.\u00a0 But I am forty-five now so it is hard.\u00a0 I make noises and my jaw opens and closes on it’s own.\u00a0 I feel that I am possessed.\u00a0 I wish that whatever it was would leave me alone.\u00a0 It began after I wrote to William and Harry comments in the British papers that they should leave their girlfriends.\u00a0 It worked. Except William got back with his girlfriend.\u00a0 When he broke up with his girlfriend I was in tears, I was so happy.\u00a0 Since then I send emails to William and Harry.\u00a0 One birthday it was online in a British paper that I follow William and Harry.<\/p>\n I am so glad that William has left the military.\u00a0 I wish that Harry would too.\u00a0 I worry about my loved ones.\u00a0 My husband is very patient with me.\u00a0 He knows about my other passions.\u00a0 I feel that my dreams are an extension of my life.\u00a0 I am happiest when I am loving someone.\u00a0 John died tragically young.\u00a0 He was only thirty-eight.\u00a0 He had a lot of living left to do.\u00a0 John had a magazine.\u00a0 I read it every month.\u00a0 I was addicted to his magazine.\u00a0 I started reading it on like the sixth issue. \u00a0\u00a0When John died, I ended up in the hospital.\u00a0 It was my doctor that told me when they had found their bodies.\u00a0 Even after all these years, it is hard to recover from.\u00a0 The day after John died my husband went to a concert.\u00a0 I asked him not to, but he went.<\/p>\n I miss John so very much.\u00a0 I think that he could have been President.\u00a0 I would have loved to be his first lady.\u00a0 John is kind of shy.\u00a0 He does not talk to me as much as I would like.\u00a0 I think he could just let some other man walk away with me.\u00a0 I have like one friend I talk to.\u00a0 I also have a younger half-brother and three half-sisters.\u00a0 Two older and one younger.\u00a0 But I am really only in touch with my two older half-sisters. I am on social media.\u00a0 I am on Twitter everyday.\u00a0 My loved ones keep me company in spirit.\u00a0 Until my husband comes back, I am alone.\u00a0 I live for my classes, my writing.\u00a0 I love City College.\u00a0 I love being a student.\u00a0 My greatest loves are away.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Josefina Vidal Love \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I am in love with love.\u00a0 One of my favorite people that I am in love with is John F. Kennedy Jr.\u00a0 I saw him once at Grand Central Station.\u00a0 It was the rededication.\u00a0 He spoke about his Mother.\u00a0 He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen.\u00a0 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":46,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-820","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/820","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/46"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=820"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/820\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":822,"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/820\/revisions\/822"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=820"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=820"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.meadmedia.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=820"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}