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You know the sound of a slot machine after you’ve won and there is an overflow of coins just tumbling out of it? That was the sound of a guy furiously searching his pockets a foot away.
Men have this complete and utter refusal to put their change anywhere but in their pockets. It’s a phenomenon to women who carry around large wallets with roomy coin pockets, or who have a separate coin purse altogether.
This is a subject that always seems to frequent conversations with friends after they walk out of the store just having purchased something. Some men are fascinated that women keep their change. They are fascinated that we utilize coin pockets and invest in coin purses. Women are fascinated that men either don’t take their change, don’t have coin pockets in their wallets, or simply just drop their change into the pockets of their jeans.
Women tend to be more careful than men are. The idea of leaving money in open pockets without the security of zippers does not ever seem to be comprehensible to us.
We see bulky wallets outlined in the back pockets of men’s jeans and momentarily gawk. We gawk not at the size of the wallets, but we gawk in wonder of how unsafe the practice of leaving one in open reach is. We see men in raw denim jeans with holes where their wallets are, showcasing the weathered leather or designer branding when we shouldn’t have to know what their wallets look like unless they’re paying for dinner.
Perhaps women are floored by such a practice of men dealing with their money so carelessly because we simply don’t have the same means to carry our own in such a way. Pockets in skirts and dresses are rare, and often for novelty’s sake. Pockets in pants and jeans are thin and many times smaller than the size of our hands. But beyond the trends of fashion, we can look and see a broader scale of hidden meaning that implies women were simply not designed to be as careless as men—something they’ve rebranded as being carefree.
We can’t afford it.
Women cannot carelessly walk around wearing as little as possible, carelessly enjoy a conversation with a stranger too much without giving off the wrong idea, or carelessly tell the truth about what her co-worker looks like in her new dress without being called a bitch. Women are bound by restrictions beyond ourselves that call for a more careful way of living, and we become labeled as being neurotic. A woman’s life is among the greatest subjects of contention.
But above all, being careless threatens our safety and security.
We can’t be careless if turning around at any minute could mean being arrested when our child falls out of a faulty highchair. We can’t be careless when our blouses are an extra button undone and we unknowingly end up flashing our supervisors. We can’t be careless in missing the cue of a potentially abusive husband and having to face years of pain and suffering until gaining enough strength and support to leave him.
We can agree that mistakes are generally made by people, and accidents just happen. The general consensus is that mistakes carry more weight, but should this really apply in every case? Could we have foreseen all that would have gone so wrongly every time? Even when circumstances are beyond our own power, women are often forgiven less and blamed more. Being careful only seeks to minimize chances of mistakes and accidents. But now it’s not enough anymore, especially not if you’re a woman.
Now it’s your fault you were raped because of what you wore. It’s your fault your child died because you were supposed to be a 24/7 stay-at-home mom. It’s your fault the entire human race is sunken in sin because you listened to the serpent and ate the apple from the tree.
We argue that men and women are equals. But as long as they both exist, this will never prove true. We will never truly accomplish equalizing ourselves. We create laws that seek to provide balance for our genders. We create organizations to forward progressive thinking and improve society. It is a beautiful thing to strive for. Our society becomes better because of such efforts for change. At the end of the day, however, there is nothing we can create that will truly fix us.